January 1984. The first day I met Dawn Lewis was a wonderful day I will never forget. Mensendick elementary school in Arizona just transferred me from 3rd to 4th grade after Christmas break. Again, I was the new kid in the class. Of course, I glanced around at all the kids but I hadn’t zoned in on anyone I wanted to befriend. When Mrs. Spencer announced it was time to line up for recess everyone quickly made a bee line for the door.
While in line this beautiful girl with perfect hair and holding a cabbage patch doll asked “Do you want to slide with me?” YES!! YES!! YES!! A thousand times YES!, I wanted to slide with her. Not only did I want a friend to play with at recess I wanted to have a chance to hold her Cabbage Patch. I asked Santa for one but, he failed to deliver. I nodded at her and she smiled and said “I’m Dawn”. Every day for about two weeks we would approach each other and ask each other to slide and we ALWAYS did. When she brought her cabbage patch I would hold her while she went down the slide and then when it was my turn on the slide they waited at the bottom. After a couple of weeks we quit asking, we already knew we were going to slide.
My friendship with Dawn Lewis was everything I needed. To this day, I believe God sent her. Her family was what I based “good people” off of when I was trying to find my way. Dawn Lewis had a mother, father, grandparents,a dog named Barkley, a pretty bedroom and a play room we spent many hours in. Her parents were so kind to me. Her mom would pick us up from school in her sports car and I felt like a rock star. Her dad would take us to get ice cream and stop by “the shop” I don’t remember if it was where he worked or a family members shop. I just recall him saying, “I have to run by the shop”. When we joined him I would look around and see pictures of Dawn in her dance costumes, and my heart would fill with pride to have her as my friend.
Some days with Dawn we spent with her grandparents or Aunt and they were just as amazing and kind to me. I remember one time her cousin tattled on us, as kids often do and when Dawns mother asked us what happened she quickly defended me. Cindy was my hero that day. There hadn’t been many adults in my life and it was the first time I had ever seen someone protect me, even if it was just childish stuff. The accusations really weren’t a big deal but having her by my side was.
For the three years I lived in AZ I was obsessed with Dawn. We spent hours swimming, dressing up and talking. She was real with me and when I would exaggerate something she would call me out (not rudely). Accountability grounded me and though I could tell stories in my head to get away from the reality of life, she kept me level. One of my favorite moments with her was at night, we were soaking our feet in the water, the pool lights were beautiful and we were telling each other our goals of family when we grew up. I wish I could remember everything we said but we did promise to name our first daughter after each other. Of course, at 11 I hadn’t realized that the promise to name a baby after me, (Vipi Liwan) was quite a high expectation.
The day we left AZ, I cried uncontrollably. Our family was running from the law, my sister had admitted to the police the abuse my father brought down on us. He was not about to accept his punishment. His decision for us to move was “to keep our family together”. We packed one bag of clothes each and loaded up the Pinto. My dog “Wags” was taken to a neighbor and I never got to really say goodbye to any friends or the girl who touched my life in so many ways. I remember being inconsolable. I blamed my tears on missing my dog (which of course that was one reason) but I knew my dad would be more patient with that than missing my best friend. After a couple days of me crying and pouting he flipped on me and got to the bottom of it. At a gas station he walked off seeking a phone booth. He came back to us kids, pulled me aside and said “I tried to call your friend so you could talk with her and maybe feel better but her mother said she was in a wreck and didn’t make it”. Oh…. I can’t explain how I felt. I do know that I never outwardly shed a tear for my friend again. At first my heart was filled with pain but now it just feels numb.
To this day I am thankful that I had her as a friend and that after years I still remembered her phone number. Pregnant and married I picked up my phone and called the familiar number that I still know twenty six years after that. Her mother picked up, I just wanted to tell her how much I appreciated her kindness and how much Dawn had meant to me, when she said “Dawn is at school, if you want me to give her your number I will”. I quickly gave her my number and got off the phone. Then I mourned long and hard. Grateful that she was well but I could not explain the level of disbelief I felt. How can a person even lie about something like that? How was I so niave? How am I supposed to feel? How?!